Trans Without Politics

Yeah, it is petty, but I guess the best way to put it is  like I'm like thinking "thanks for reminding me of crap I hate about myself."

Maybe I'm just frustrated from how slow changes seem to be happening from hormones. I know it takes time and I'm supposed to be patient. My friend claims he's noticed a change in voice, but it seems nowhere near as much of a drop as other trans men on T after roughly 3 months. At most, I just sound more like an adult woman and less like a kid. Other trans guys already sound like teenage boys by the third month.

I haven't been able to visit an endocrinologist as often as I should due to work and skyrocketing rent. :/

So lately I've been having a lot of emotional problems recently, not just simply anger and aggression but also anxiety and sadness.  And when I become sad it's harder for me to cry or express it around others. Also a higher sex drive as well (which was already high prior T) and all these issues combined have made concentrating at work a bit harder. I get a lot of mixed responses when I look up this topic from various sources.

According to one trans man I know in person,  his first two months on T were rough emotionally, almost to the point where he considered going off it. Not saying it's all Testosterone's fault itself, but more of just due to a hormonal imbalance in general.

Then I've got other people telling me ( mostly cis men) that it's because of T and this is just part of being a guy. Basically comparing my current emotional state with that of the average teenage boy. :/ But in a way my current behavior does remind me a bit of my years in highschool.

Then the third group I've come across is people saying hormones have absolutely nothing to do with this, that I'm probably upset with something else.  But in all honesty I can't think of anything else that would be upsetting me right now. I've been getting unreasonably aggressive over dumb things that typically only annoy me prior taking hormones.

Did anyone else have emotional issues their first 2 months on hrt? FTM or MTF?  My friend said I just may have to workout more often to calm myself down. Like I literally almost exploded this morning because I felt like someone was talking too much....

Since Trans men are such a small group, I've always had a hard time finding any concrete explanations, at most just other trans men reporting the  same pains and theories for why it happens. It could be that if you're early on in your transition, the organs will attempt to do their job as long as they exist in your body. If you're on shots, you could still technically be going through hormonal cycles.

It may also be from the organs shutting down as well because of T. I also fund this one tidbit on a FTM hysto site:  Testosterone causes atrophy of the uterus and ****, which puts tension on surrounding muscles and ligaments which can cause painful cramping.

http://www.hysto.net/reasons-transmen-get-hysterectomy.htm

 Sometimes it frustrates me how little info I can find in regards to trans men health. I wish I new more.

Honestly, considering the effects testosterone has on fat redistribution, I don't feel like "mansculpture" is really worth it.  Testosterone will most likely provide the same results in the long run, and as you mentioned with liposuction type procedures, there's always the possibility of regaining the fat. If that were to happen, that's a lot of money down the drain.

Then again, I've got broad shoulders and small hips even without testosterone, so I can't quite relate to being very dysphoric in that area.  I suppose if you give the testosterone and exercise a chance and you still feel dysphoric about that area it may be worth looking into, but I feel about mansculpture the same way I feel about breast augmentation for MTFs, I personally feel it's more of a last resort/icing on the cake thing rather than a procedure to be looking into early on in your transition.